OOC: Locked to those who know about The Mission, but ooc comments are welcome.I should have expected it. Feel free t'tell me how much a fuckin' retard I am fer not seein' it comin'. Back when me an' Connor started following through with God's plan, what press we received was always mixed with some kinda "moral ambiguity" or some shite question, but in the end the reports were generally positive. We got rave fuckin' reviews like two characters in the latest movie everyone is supposed to rush out an' go see. I liked it. I felt like some kind of untouchable hero. I even had dreams of me runnin' 'round town in a black cape an' mask speakin' Spanish an' slashin' 'round a big "M" for all to see. I know it's stupid, but I felt like I was doin' somethin' good, an' other people recognized it too. Why wouldn't I be a hero? It was a newspaper who first called me a fuckin' Saint after all.
Not sure when it was, but I noticed a change. Me, Connor, an' Da weren't far away people that were compared on the same level as fuckin' Batman an' Superman. We were reduced to
topics. I once caught some kinda Philosophy professor or some rot discussin' us on the Boston news. He doesn't know us. Who the fuck was he to talk about complexes and shit? It was an insult, and still is in my opinion. I don't want anyone in my head, especially not some pretentious bastard stuffed into one of those suits with patches on the elbows.
Then we just sorta... faded. I was ok with this stage. The Lord fuckin' knows I like bein' noticed as much as anyone else, but not in this way. My life is not somethin' I wanna gamble on. I'm no good dead. I know I will see the skies of Heaven when I go, but now's not my time. Lyin' low is easier then ye'd think, especially when ye know the right people to help look after ya.
Ev'ryone who has ever had any proverb recited at them knows that good things don't last. Mine didn't. Apathy turned to hate pretty damn quick. Those roundtable discussions were pulled back up an' edited t'make us look more like villains. Da wanted us to "reveal our existence to the world." Well, we did. I trust that he knows what he's doin', but that doesn't mean I am scared outta my goddamn mind. We were technically considered criminals before, but it didn't matter 'cause we were far away doin' good. Now our actions have a face, an' real people're easier t'hunt down than myths.
That's exactly what happened - a hunt is the only word fer it. Cops, bounty hunters, an' even civilians have been actively lookin' fer us fer a while now. We can't stay anywhere fer too long but we're too broke t'get outta the city. Besides, God gave us a mission, an' we're gonna fuckin' follow it. Boston's our home, an' a man must cleanse what's his before he goes out t'fix someone else's problems.
I'm scared. I saw Rocco die in front o'me. Who's next? Connor? Da?
Me?
I'm afraid of dyin'. I'm not gonna lie an' say I'm not. What scares me more is that we're only three people. We're outnumbered by all the evil 'round us, I understand that, an' I understand that The Mission will never be over while we're alive. The thing that bothers me beyond all reason is that we're bein' targeted when sick fucks who rape innocent children are left to run 'round free. With us locked up or dead there's no one t'stop these people, not even three of God's chosen Saints. Who knows what person's whose life ended too quickly could've grown t'do somethin' great?
I'm not gonna let that happen... or die tryin'.